Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Gray makes colorful

I don't know about you, but Autumn is one of my favorite times of the year! People start getting excited about the impending Holidays, football starts, baseball starts to matter, kids are in school again, the nights get cold, fireplaces start being used, you can see your breath, frost blankets the ground, it get's brighter earlier (I freakin love mornings), and BEAuty is everywhere!

I am such a huge fan of nature's beauty! I mean, who isn't really?! I have grown particularly fond of fall. The leaves changing into magnificent colors you can't really recreate remind me of life's goodness, challenge me to see Beauty more, and just make me thankful.
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Meredy and I were talking yesterday about life and just how good God is to us. This year has been a pretty incredible year for our family. There have been so many blessings that He has rained down on us, it's humbling to even reminisce. The crazy thing though is that this year has had some decent-sized trials as well. I'll spare the details for actually personal conversations, but it's fair to say that this year has been one blessing from the Lord after another.

It's odd that I would even be surprised to notice that He has turned what seemed to be bad into something great! In so many ways, He has done and continues to do this in my life. God means good! He is good! All is grace! All is good! But I'm not totally there all the time. Often, it's tough for me to see all as grace, especially when I'm right in the thick of it. I'm sure hoping I'm not alone in this.

Mere and I's conversation continued and we talked about what it means that God has been so good to us this year. Does it mean that a huge trial awaits us in the next year? Does it mean that we are being rewarded for being faithful? Does it mean nothing? Does it mean that God just wants to be good to us because He's God and He can do what He wants?

We didn't find an answer!
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I was playing in the leaves today with the Fin man and I got to thinking/remembering back to 2nd grade science class. I remember learning about why leaves were green in the summer and changed colors in the fall. The chlorine (or some crazy chlor word that I refuse to look up because it takes away from not only the story but the joke that I've now ruined by making you read this obnoxiously long parenthetical thought) that is produced in the leaves which makes them bright green comes from the sun. When the sun stops shining as bright and kinda distances herself from the trees, the leaves stop producing the green-making-chlor-chemical-thing. You would think that this would be a bad thing. I mean the sun is a good thing and it produces so much life; so...if the sun is gone then the good ceases to be around and the life starts to die...right?

Well, I guess that is sort of how it works. But, if you're anything like me or the Designer who set it all up this way, you see it as doing the opposite! The leaves get prettier after the goodness starts to fade.

 Mere and I didn't come up with an answer to the "why has this year been so good?"
question, but we did come up with a response. God has been so good to you Jake and Meredith! Our response-thankfulness!!

I have been learning so freaking much about thankfulness this year. Not just being thankful in the ways I've always been told to be, but really being thankful-for EVERYTHING.

I recently read Ann Voskamp's popular book 1000 Gifts, and it was extremely challenging to me. One thing that she says over an over in her book is that "eucharisteo (thankfulness) precedes the miracle." What I took away from the book was that living in joy-constant, unfiltered, overwhelming joy, is a miracle and that the only way to get this miracle is by choosing thankfulness.
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I like to think that the leaves turn incredible colors and create unrepeatable and continuously compounding beauty because they're so thankful to God for all the sunlight they got all summer long! This time with Autumn's colors-thankfulness precedes the miracle!


  I don't know about you, but I can sure learn a lot from leaves!













Friday, October 4, 2013

The way up

Humility-a means to an end?

Go low to get high? A paradoxical idea-one of the Word's many.

Truly going low, however, cannot should not be mistaken for merely pretending to be low in an effort to seem high (Oh, I'm way too familiar with this mask). The difference between the two lies in relationship. We only truly go low when we meet someone. This particular person knows the journey from high to low and back to High. He knows the way and wants to show us. We absolutely play a role in our journey to greatness, fullness, and the heights-we are to humble ourselves. It's simple really...When we gain proper perspective-see ourselves as we really are and He as He really is, we become humble. True reflections (honest mirrors) give us the perspective that opens doors of pride leading us somewhere...somewhere incredible.


The door swings open-stairs. But the door said "To the heights." These stairs go down though. I decide to go anyways. As I get further down the stairs it gets darker-different. I can hardly see him, more his silhouette, when I hear him say, "Welcome Jake, I've been waiting." His voice seems familiar yet unknown. "For me?" I think. "Who is this man?" We talk for awhile; I get to know him, talk more, and go even lower. "More stairs? Where are we going?" I wonder but don't ask. 

Time slips away. I am captivated by this man. He's fascinating, funny, friendly, and familiar. I like love being with him. It's like waking from a dream and not being able to distinguish fiction from reality-these moments. From the time I opened the door, walked down stairs, met him, walked down more stairs, and talked with him,  I've somehow forgot what, or even that, I left.

But then...
he pulls back curtains, raises blinds, and shows me. The Viewpoint! 

Light floods the room, illuminating His face. We look together out the window and see beauty like never before. I've glimpsed pieces of this skyline before; haven't I?  "How did He do this?" I remember- I had a "higher" perch before; I gave up so much to come down those stairs; I left some incredible safety and comfort behind. 

It's weird though because as soon as I met Him, I began to forget everything from upstairs. I loved getting to know Him, seeing His story. I lost track of time, my desires changed, my memories faded, and my focus shifted. I found that I didn't care about anything but that moment with Him-He's so great! Then...it happened; He showed me where we'd come. Our viewpoint, now fully lit, showed me Him and revealed to me the Beauty, the landscape, and skyline I'd merely glimpsed before. A viewpoint more incredible than my dreams dared tread to.

I remember. I see it clearly now! I was upstairs. I'd thought I had it all-I had nothing without Him. I'd thought I'd seen beauty-I'd barely glimpsed even a shard of it. I'd thought I was happy-I knew nothing of Joy. I'd though I was high-I hadn't even left the ground. But now...I'll never forget!! Never!

Sunday, August 4, 2013

The power of denial

 I never diet! Seriously though people, I have never in my life actually dieted. No Atkins; no Weight Watchers; no vegetarian; no intentional strategic picking of certain foods; not even avoiding one type of food all together-other than Chinese of course, which I hate!

A little over two months ago, Meredith and I started talking about potentially doing a diet. Meredy was looking to shed some pounds and expedite her weight loss post-baby! I wasn’t really looking to do anything in particular just interested in maybe cutting down my soda intake and trying to potentially get some more discipline in my life.

Generally I’m not a fan of “diets” because of their lack of sustainability. Most people I’ve known or observed who’ve “dieted,” tend to just end up completely penduluming back into even worse eating habits then pre-diet or quit part way through because the desired outcome wasn’t happening at all or fast enough. I’m not typically interested in doing something that is hard, just to say I did it. I’m more interested in doing something hard for a season so that the process can change me for the long haul.

-Enter Whole30…..

I had heard a little bit about this diet, or program, or thing called Whole30. I hadn’t known anyone to complete the program, but I was intrigued and drawn to it over other diets because it seemed logical to me. Plus, the Whole30 philosophy was about “changing your life in 30 days” by “restoring your healthy metabolism, healing your digestive track, calming systematic inflammation, and putting an end to unhealthy cravings, habits, and relationships with food.” Wait!? I have a relationship with food? Go on…

So I read a lot about the program designed by Whole9 (a company basically) and decided I wanted to do it. Several things about their program resonated with my desires for my life as a whole, and I found the rhetoric of the program’s description to be motivating, humorous, interesting, challenging, and scary. I was in! I told Mere (who had also already heard about the program from a variety of sources), lets do it! Let’s start now-just like it recommends!!

Well, we didn’t start right away. Ultimately, we decided that it would be better to do it together and Mere wasn’t quite ready because of the craziness and difficulty surrounding her job of staying at home and taking care of our 3 awesome kids (specifically, our little Bailiff!!). So, we started on July 5. And, today is day 31! We finished! (please folks, hold the applause!)

The last 30 days of my life have probably changed me for forever. I try not to make too many ultimate statements these days. I used to say things like, “I am never going to…” or “I think that ________ always…” Saying things like this has got me into a little trouble in the past!  [J-La feels me] But, despite my natural reluctance to promise change that is lasting only to find myself disappointed with a short-lived experience, I am gonna say it again…the last 30 days of my life have probably changed me forever.

It’s much more than the “diet” though. Whole30 served as a catalyst for some significant progress in my life. Over the last 30 days, I cut out social networking (Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter), sugar (at least added ones), grains, legumes, dairy, and basically every drink you can possible imagine except water, black coffee and regular tea. Instead of these things, I prayed for my wife, read 4 books, spent less money going out, grilled out (helping my awesome cook of a wife), and ate healthy foods such as meat, eggs, veggies, fruit, coconut, avocado, and olive oil. Cutting out the “bad” and replacing it with the “good” seems like a good rule of thumb to me.


Have you ever been reading a story and found yourself lost in it? I heard a lot of stories growing up. I mostly heard stories from the Bible. I can distinctly remember at one point getting lost in a story about a guy named Jesus. Jesus was this amazing, kind, strong, and mysterious man that had come down from heaven to join humankind and walk through life as a person. I can remember stories about Jesus picking his disciples (an old fashioned word for follower) by walking up to complete strangers and just telling them to follow him. Fishermen, doctors, tax collector, and probably cable guys were among the people Jesus picked.

As a kid, the idea that a grown man would just drop his entire life and follow another grown man around and do whatever he tells him to do was never confusing to me. Somehow in my adulthood, my mind and heart have been convoluted so much that this story seems to take more and more explanation for me to accept it as believable. But, as a kid, I remember thinking…of course! Why wouldn’t they follow Jesus, he was AMAZING!

Well, as life continued to go on, these stories began to really impact me on a heart level (and I’m not talking about indigestion, I’m talking about emotional impact!). At a certain point in my life, the calling of Jesus made sense to me. I understood that he wanted me to follow him too. I can remember hearing this verse for probably the 175th time; but, this time, its words forever changed me.

In the book of Luke, Jesus is doin his thang. He’s feeding thousands of people with one little boys lunch, he’s talking about his impending death, and he’s getting his followers (disciples) to tell him what they really think about him #truthtalk. It’s in this context that Jesus, in a roundabout way, asks, “Who wants to follow me?”

I remember hearing this question and almost jumping up and out from inside of myself and shouting, “I DO!!!!” I mean who wouldn’t wanna follow Jesus, he’s AMAZING!

Well, Jesus goes on to tell the people listening that they can follow him. Then he says what it looks like to follow him.

You’re probably thinking, “I know what it takes to follow someone! I got an E for Excellent in follow-the-leader back in the Kinder!” Well, I’m guessing that following Jesus in life is probably a little more complex than following your buddy David down the hallway to the bathroom. 

Jesus said,
            “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it.” Luke 9:23-24

These words and the notions that the way to save my life is to give it up and the way to find my life is to lose it have FOREVER changed me.  This Whole30 program has blatantly reminded me that I have drifted from self-denial to self-indulgence; it’s yelled at me saying, “You need __________!!!” (insert sugary or yummy food), when in fact I don’t. Denying myself food and drink for 30 days has illuminated the pathway to Jesus, showed me the cross that I must grab, and reminded me of the toil I will most definitely experience in following him.


Denying yourself is super hard. There were plenty of moments of weakness, anger, depression, frustration, impatience, woefulness, and regret. At times, I said the things that I had heard others say that pushed me away from “diets” in the first place. It was difficult! I feel bad that this is true for me, but doing this diet, denying myself these easily accessible and satisfying foods, was the one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.

But…I don’t regret these last 30 days in the slightest. I have been kickstarted back into some super good disciplines. The gratification that’s experienced when you deny yourself something that you want but don’t really need (and actually might even be harmful), whether it’s a super sugary carbonated drink or a five minute spy-session on the old Fbook, motivates you to deny yourself of other things that are harder to resist. Self-control is a difficult discipline that takes practice.

For some people, a little self-control will help them to gain more and more and then eventually get to their goal. For me, this is not true at all. I’ve been “trying” for years to get a few areas of my life back into shape. I’ve told myself things like, “Maybe if you read the Hunger Games, your desire to read will increase and then you can actually read something life-altering like the book of John.” Tried it…didn’t work. I’ve said things like, “Maybe if you cut out soda at home, then you’ll eventually stop ordering 4 refills of Dr Pepper at Red Robin.” Tried it…didn’t work. For me, I had to go all in! Cold turkey! And that’s what Whole30 is designed for anyways, so it worked perfectly.

 RESULTS!

Well, it’s been 31 days and I’m sure if you’ve made it this far through the blog you want to know what’s changed besides all these boring things that I’ve mentioned. Well, since you listened to my spiel, I’ll tell ya what happened with the diet!

At first I didn’t feel anything good. The first week and a half was terrible! I was grumpy, tired, angry, dizzy, sick to my stomach, and just plain mad! I had the carb flu real real bad! Then during week 2, I had some stomach pain and a little digestive issues but still nothing good. Then…I didn’t experience some drastic overnight change that just clicked and I was never the same. Instead, I’ve experienced several changes gradually. I now am sleeping better (both falling, staying, and waking), have more energy (definitely no more mid-day slump), have huge clarity of mind (I haven’t been able to read 2 books simultaneously and comprehend them in over 4 years let alone 4 books), don’t have super rank farts (which for a Greer boy is a bloody miracle!!), and have lost 25 pounds dropping from a 38 waist to a 34 (which I haven’t worn since my wedding day!).  I now enjoy several veggies, crave frozen fruit or almonds instead of Oreos and Cookout, love black coffee, prefer hot tea to dessert, and use freakin coconut oil on just about anything ;) !

Don’t be fooled! None of these results are guaranteed. But, if you are like me at all and you do this diet- cheat free (literally absolutely not one exception-otherwise it’s not Whole30 its instead Paleo/Half13/your created diet plan), I guarantee you, something will change!

For me the changes I hope and pray I can sustain don’t have all that much to do with food. However, I do think that my eating habits will be drastically improved from the last 30 days and that my overall health will continue to improve (assuming I don’t choose to go right back into the unhealthy habits from before).

I challenge you to dare all the more and experience the incredible power of denial! Do whole30! And while you’re at it, get to know Jesus a little more-cause ultimately that’s all that matters.